I guess strength is one of those things that you either have or you don't. Or is it something that one can acquire along the way? Or both? Who knows?
What I do know is, it takes strength to have strength. It takes courage and trust to know your strength will pull you through. Strength is hard. What's even more difficult is being a person that's known for their strength. Being the strong person takes strength in itself.
"You are so strong", "I wish I was as strong as you", "You are stronger than that". All things I have heard since I can remember. Is it true? More than likely. Do I always feel that way? NO! But what happens when the strong person doesn't' want to be strong anymore? Is the strong person allowed to have a weak moment? Does that make them any less strong?
Strength is defined as the capacity for exertion or endurance. That has to mean that some have a larger capacity for labor and endurance than others. It makes me think why did God make my capacity larger? In my birthday post Age aint nothing but… I wrote:
“I can reflect over the past few years and now I can say, Minah, you really are strong. Honestly, I have hard times believing that I was/am anything close. I think I have lived portions of my life trying to own up to the peanut gallery's expectation of the "Strong and strong willed" Minah. Maybe, just maybe they saw something in me that I had not discovered until now. It takes strength to endure hardships but it takes courage to meet your strength for one to embrace hardships.”
I didn't know my strength would be tested soon after. Now that I am questioning my strength I have to build up courage to embrace the strength I know is there. Wisdom says to take courage. Courage in knowing I'm really strong, like people say? Maybe. Wisdom, I guess,is believing there's a strength inside of you even in your weakest moments. Courage is choosing to be strong as opposed to weak in those moments.
As I am working this strength thing out I am learning that even the strongest people are allowed to to have weak moments. For the ultimate strength resides in us but it doesn't derive from us. God's strength is made perfect in our weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:9). Now that I am reminded of His strength, I am learning not to focus on the handicap and begin appreciate the gifts around me. I am learning to approach each "weak moment" situation as it is a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness.
I am learning to approach limitations in stride, and "with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become. "(2 Corinthians 12:6-10 MSG)
The weaker I get, the stronger I become